It's so strange when you realize that your parents have secrets between them. Sometimes I just don't think about it, but I guess they do. And sometimes they think things and tell one another. But that's not really a secret I guess. My mom said that sometimes my Dad worries that I don't eat enough. And my Dad says that my mom can't wait for me to go to college and that I'm her only hope?
Ugh. I just don't know sometimes. I think maybe I will be too afraid and too shy to even get there. But then again, if I stay home and go to community college I bet anything I won't do what I need to do. College is such an intense thing. I never thought that I would actually get there, but for the first time I really want to. When we went on vacation we looked at a few. I really loved UC Santa Cruz though.



Oh well, I can do it. I guess.

Cher circa 1968





My new muse.

Sometimes I think I'm a good person. I hope that other people see it too. I wish I could just sleep. I'm feeling very sad and lonely.

It's been so hot the only thing I do is drink water. My car is in the shop because I hydroplaned this morning, and slammed into a curb. Everything is fine, except the front right tire is acting funny. My mom took me to take it to the shop. My sister is moving to West Virginia, with her little family. I think it's kind of cute. At least she will be able to afford things there. Summer school is almost done too. Then, it's Santa Cruz and back to school. My senior year, finally. I can't wait for college to bring me wonderful opportunities and tons of new people. Everything is going to be okay, I know it will.



How is everyones summer been?

Does anyone remember this movie? I love it!